Thanks for all the kind sentiments this last week. I’m completely blown away. I’m no hero. Seriously and deeply, I’m feeling the love and hell, trying my hardest to stay motivated to rip some legs off at the USGP finals here in Portland and Nationals in Bend.

I won’t lie, I’ve been waking up in the middle of the night all week. Tossing and turning… it is kind of ridiculous to be honest. Mentally I’m over it but emotionally? Clearly not.

Replaying the race over and over again in my head… (I could have attacked on the right, he should have gotten outta my way on the runup, I should not have waited up) coulda woulda shoulda

I’m not one for regret.

Sure, I could have attacked last Sunday when Sean bobbled and possibly gone on to win but, would forever have felt like a tool for attacking when my only rival in the race hit the deck in a silly tangle. There is no class in that. It was not a World Cup, I’m not a juiced up Euro, and I don’t need to take advantage of my only competitor’s mishap to win. It is the local Cross Crusade, and as awesome as winning the series would have been, it would not have been worth it to win like that.

I hope that makes sense, because I don’t regret it.

We took it right down to the line, 60 fucking minutes of pedaling our eyes out and we could not drop one another. But there has to be a winner and there has to be a loser. That is how racing works.

For better or worse Babs crossed the line first and from what I hear the finish was pretty epic to behold!

THAT is awesome: congrats to Sean Babcock on a solid Cross Crusades campaign. The kid is talented and we will see more to come in the next few years.


3 comments for “appreciated.”

  1. I’m sure the moment will be replayed many, many times in your head – that is normal. You’re a competitor!

    But, the attitude and manner in which you are handling this ‘loss’ IS first class. And it will not be lost on others.

    Great ride…great effort….great loss.

    Good luck ripping their legs off the next time!

    Posted by cmoons | November 20, 2009, 9:50 am
  2. I hate to say it but way it played out is a better story–of course I have no business saying that…but your story is a true cyclocross war story. One for the history books. Obvious this is an outside perspective and I hope it doesn’t come across in any way other than supportive.

    Winning is winning and every race has a winner. Your story has caught a lot of attention around the country. Sorry but I don’t know who sean is…but I know who molly cameron is.

    Not every race has such a human dramatic performance.


    Posted by Jason | November 20, 2009, 7:00 pm
  3. yeah. YEAH. fucking great attitude to have about it all, molly. it was an awesome race from the spectating end of things – we couldnt have asked for a better finale. both you and babcock rode yourselves to the limit, and the three of you (with tonkin) all rode tactically smart races from your respective angles. and im with you on not attacking when babcock tangled in the tape after the drop-in – i know youd rather lose it like this than win it like that. we always need more of that in bike racing, across the board. when things are that close, only to be snatched away, of course youre going to have that tossing and turning, the replaying of the moment ad nauseum. you can second-guess your tactics all you want, but i dont think you played your cards wrong in the slightest. you were up against a formidable duo, and the only reason you could have had to race differently would have been if youd been able to get out front and ride away – but the lot of you were too evenly matched for it to do anything but come down to the wire, the point of greatest risk, a finish line thats a bit wacky, to be sure.

    well all be out for you at usgp, cheering doubly hard, im sure. i dont know if im going to make nationals at all, let alone stay for the entire thing, but believe you me, if i do, youll hear me screaming at you :)

    Posted by joel | November 20, 2009, 10:14 pm

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