Last weekend I did a road stage race in Eugene and got completely handled. Just worked over. There was a point where I was like “what else do I have to be doing? I’m already doing 20+ hour training weeks!” I would not call it demoralizing though, it was hot and very hard.
Two days ago we did the Wednesday night CX ride in Forest park and things started to click. The climbs felt easy, like really easy. My file tread tyres hooked up perfectly in the loose dry dirt. And I felt like I could keep riding and riding and riding all night.
Its going to take a couple more months but I feel the form coming.